Sunday, June 7, 2009

Let Go of My Ego


It seems the last few days my ego is getting the best of me. I am concerned about being right instead of just being.

Turns out I haven't been a very good listener or friend. I am living through the ego and therefore I need approval and need and expectation are interfering with my nice peace.... sigh..... This too, will pass.

My little get-away was so good for me. I needed to be in nature and sun and water. I needed to let go and let things just happen. I needed to step aside from my daily demands and try to quiet my mind. Being on the Colorado river was peaceful and full of life. I was able to drift off on my on and be in my own thoughts and turn off my internal dialogue. I would have done another day. Another day drifting about being swallowed by the calm river being reminded how beautiful the world is and how short this life is. My soul felt lifted and joyous.

I'm just trying to be, not to upset or change anything or anyone. Just taking time to come back and do all the things i am supposed to and now I am struggling. Struggling to make everyone happy still. I'm trying not to react. My reaction is my ego.

Right now I will just be. Present. Now is not an obstacle nor is it an enemy. What is my relationship with the present moment? Life. I am living.

4 comments:

Sarah said...

Life is alot harder and complicated than we understand sometimes...so complex.

Shelly Rayedeane said...

Letting go of the ego, for some people, is a very difficult thing to do.

Kudos to you.

Cunning_Linguist said...

ahhhhh, the story of humans being. Always complex and involved when it really needn't be. That's not to say that we don't encounter problems that aren't very difficult to deal with. Quite the opposite. But take into mind this simple phrase...... in 100 years, is anybody going to care? If the answer is yes, then it's serious. If no, then so mote it be. Live. Love. Laugh. the end.

Cumming Soon said...

You should just be you. Never is there a better time than to be yourself.

You are not here to please others. No one should ever expect that.