Sunday, June 7, 2009
Let Go of My Ego
It seems the last few days my ego is getting the best of me. I am concerned about being right instead of just being.
Turns out I haven't been a very good listener or friend. I am living through the ego and therefore I need approval and need and expectation are interfering with my nice peace.... sigh..... This too, will pass.
My little get-away was so good for me. I needed to be in nature and sun and water. I needed to let go and let things just happen. I needed to step aside from my daily demands and try to quiet my mind. Being on the Colorado river was peaceful and full of life. I was able to drift off on my on and be in my own thoughts and turn off my internal dialogue. I would have done another day. Another day drifting about being swallowed by the calm river being reminded how beautiful the world is and how short this life is. My soul felt lifted and joyous.
I'm just trying to be, not to upset or change anything or anyone. Just taking time to come back and do all the things i am supposed to and now I am struggling. Struggling to make everyone happy still. I'm trying not to react. My reaction is my ego.
Right now I will just be. Present. Now is not an obstacle nor is it an enemy. What is my relationship with the present moment? Life. I am living.