Strike from the Record

I rarely live with regrets. There really is no taking back an action. The damage is done. I have very few regrets. But I have one that I would do anything to erase, to strike from the record, to delete it permanently.

I did something many months ago that hurts someone that means the world to me. I was ‘forgiven’ but that scar is there and reminders come up and I am sure the pain feels like the day it happened. This person didn’t deserve my intoxicated lapse in judgment. My remorse is severe and this day still haunts me and weighs heavy in my life. When it comes up I remember it weighs even heavier in their heart.

I wonder if forgiveness does exist. I don’t think it does. Not with that person there to remind you.

There was that day that I made a huge mistake. The one that I keep trying to forget about, the one you can’t let go of, maybe that is the same day you made a huge mistake too.