Monday, December 10, 2012

life eventtmojo rising

an un expected meduical event that will change me forever, nov 15th i was snatched right out of my home into a hospital away from my family for 3 weeks. missing thanks giving at home i had an unexpected huge storoke said my doctors. ian some how recognized right away that it was happening, my speech was slurred and i had weakness. but felt nothing.in fact i told him not to call 911 i work so hard at being healthy. it has taken me this long to even start to process how bad this could have been.ians fast reaction saved me from long term hardship. the whole time in the hospital i was more worried about my kids well being. then about mine. they were at the house when it happened and in the er when they were currying about.  Ian immediately started a get well page on Facebook to try to contain info in one place and i tell you. i never felt so loved. nbut knew that i aways had the most amazing people in my life. Vhttps://www.facebook.com/groups/534571653238370/as the love poured in i knew i could kick this hell away.and the never before noticed love from Ian opened a whole new love passage to us.insert cliche you never know what you got until its gone. for some reason everyone ids saying how amazing i am. i am not doing anything that anyone would be doing if they could do it. seriously the love and positive energy is healing. it has renewed my hope for humanity. maybe even showed that ther are no guarantees ior anyone, an eyeopener of sortof to many people.and my daughter singing for me reduces me to tears.https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=489103444446452i have somany things to get well foran90%of it inst about me.thanks to all of ou who touche dmy soul during this Sensurround yourself with amazing people they will inspire you to be your best self.i still have yet to greive. i have tried to jusst acceptccept that i will never be who i was . ian says i seem much calmer and sweeter. i do feel different. i see the blessing in life and want to live it daily, i am even more emo than i was.

I was a little pissed afew days in to it, because i was starting to feel like i was in alignment with health and fitness, love and work.it is a big reset button. i have found gratitude in it all.i find i want to dig deeper into self,
thank you for all the love and hope and encouragement.and kid words that move mr to tears. never hold back your love or happiness. and know you are needed by those round need them themit is hard for me to rely on others, i cannot use my left hand and im a leftie. ttheythink it was a hereditary stroke. my father had one at the same age as me mhthe had lasting injuryandg. he didn't work for months,. oi am ready to go back. i have to tel myself to rest. iwe have had endless visitors i have loved it. if you need a winter getaway az is perfev=ct this time of year. when Brett came to see me we had some great laughs and he says i didnt know strokes could be do much fun.love you Brett and thank you for writing that beautiful story about mehttp://www.storylane.com/stories/show/1106915004/this-dragon-will-be-slayed?invite_code=SHAREWITHBRETT&it=10vkbm0.  we need to get dawn vvto bm with us make it happen. i dont ask for much.

like i said ui never felt more loved by ian in the almost 8 years we have been together  i told him i wanted to get msarried. know even my strokry mind knows that is not the answer.but i love this man for showing up and  giving me what i knew he hadall along.

8 comments:

Wow, that was awkward said...

You are awesome. Love you MoMo. Your wonderful kids and Ian too. Kick some strokey ass.

The Six-Fingered Monkey said...

Mo! Oh, beautiful MO!

I had no idea... I didn't even see the Facebook chatter or Brett's story! (Likely because I am selfish and don't really pay attention to whats going on out here on the Internets unless it pertains to me).

Feel better... rest... and thank God for all the love you have in your life.

Here's to a quick recovery!!!

All My Love, Six

NicePeace said...

2wow strokey ass kicked
2six thanks for the well wishes. iam selfish too ask anyone. me me me .

Red Shoes said...

Bless your heart...

Stay strong and keep your confidence and drive in focus.

God Speed in your recovery!!

*huggles*

~shoes~

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Memphis Steve said...

I had no idea that this had happened. I am so sorry to hear that you're going through this, but I'm glad that you're alive and typing, at least. I hope you continue to recover and get back to 100 percent. I still haven't gone to Burning Man with you so you HAVE to recover! Seriously, I hope that you recover fully and are doing great. :-)

Anonymous said...

I was just thinking of you. Sending you big BIG love, as always! <3

Vapid Vixen said...

This made me cry. I don't like crying. It creates snot. You suck. In a really amazing way.