I am a bit in a foul mood. I am not really into spell check today nor caps or full words or even punctuation for that matter.
Truth is I am in a pretty hoeful <--- hopeful, place. I guess I need to spell check.....
I had a shitty week last week and goddamm it has been a while since one that dramatic.
I have been wanting to find the quiet time to reflect on my burning man experience. I did and I didnt. I decided I am not going to label my experience. I am not going to define it as either good or bad. I am just going to say that burning man was great and here are some of the reasons only maybe a few people will understand because they know me or went for themselves or both or you are a really good listener or stalker.
SO in looking at the BM experience It was great. And any other adjective that is great-like. The time of my life for everyday that I was there. Why? I was present. I was totally in acceptance of my life. How awesome is that? It is really amazing to look at it that way. It feels good to feel that today. There is so much to be in awe about anytime you are present. Try it now.
The theme was Fertility 2.0. Take that however it resonates with you. I personally think of it as a birth or a newness. Symbolically I think of more, abundance and growth of a family. Ironically. That is what happened while I was there. I found out who my family is and it grew out of a mutual respect and need. I strengthened relations and questioned some as well. And now that the dust has mostly settled I feel reborn and ready to take on the world again. That is what is so special. You don't know what you will get out of that place. I found some ugly things there. I have let them go, All those weirdos there say the Playa provides. That couldn't be more true. You just don't always know what you are in need of. Well, at least for a ex-codependent like me.
I welcome the changes I feel today. I let go of some nasty shiz and I am open to the unknown of abundance that is out there. I don't have an expectation for it. But I have a word for it.
I asked my fake Siri aka Skyvi (Android) what is Love? And this is what she said:
Sometimes I think love is just a biological urge. Other times it seems like a spiritual quality. Love unlike energy or matter, seems limitless.
I plan on using my limitless love on everyone I meet. Just like I did at Burning Man.