Monday, May 18, 2009
I'm not broken, Fix Me
Im mostly a pretty stable well rounded run of the mill normal person with lots of everyday insecurities and plenty of blame.
No really, Im constantly learning and trying to fix me. But i decided that I dont want to be fixed, today. I am just me. I try to please and i think i succeed based on that my life is simple but full. I have all and more of my basic, and then some, needs met at all times of the day.
How blessed to be able to drive, eat, be warm or cool, work, love, share and connect with people. I like to think those people feel I am a vital part of their lives and I hope everyday I learn something from everyone I encounter and maybe even teach along the way.
I feel very down today and I just want to feel okay with me. And I usually do until I am told how to be. I thought I was making a difference, but seems i was only making mistakes...
I am present and willing and I will keep trying. My soul is bare and my words are raw. Just me.
I dont have any direction in this blog just occupying my rambling mind and trying to make sense of it all. One day i hope to be able to really make a difference while i am still here loving and not bitter.
If it were perfect, maybe i couldn't appreciate all the little things. I'm not bad. Im still here trying to fix me...