Saturday, November 29, 2008

Tivo, Porn and Saying Good Bye

We upgraded and got a new Tivo. The HD Tivo to go with the 52" flat screen Sony something or other. We can order Dominos Pizza and checkout You Tube all from the comfort of the couch.

It's too much for me. But I still like it.

I'll admit, it is a damn good picture. Super.

Thank Allah we dont get XCESS channel. I think we would be watching All Girl MILF Munch, Born for Porn, Deep WithIn, Forbidden MILF Affair, Asian Hos take Black Poles 3, Cheap and Dirty Sex, All Girl Beaver Lick and All Girl Cougar Lick, Big Sausage Pizza 17, Big Boobs are Cool and my favorite Black Guys in Latin Thighs on a way too regular basis.

I only will watch Tivo now. It is really hard to sit through any regular programming.

All my company just left. I was ready to get the house back to it's original smell, but not eager to see everyone go. We had a bunch of dogs here and just enough room for the overnighters. Last one here gets the pull out sofa. (Sorry sis)

I had a lot of mixed feelings ending this weekend. It was a year ago we discovered my moms soon to be fatal brain tumors and the reminder that even though my kids dad was here, that he is not a daily part of their lives. We took him to the airport this morning. And when I watched him sob leaving his kids, I couldnt help but feel sadness for them, him and a reminder of the choices we have made and now live with. I never wonder if I did the right thing by leaving so many years ago, I just wish he could live right here with these amazing kids. I hugged him when he left and he told me thank you for raising these girls so well.

My thanks and real kudos go to my BF. He is here with them. Making sure that we are safe and happy and playing the family man. I dont think he ever imagined that he would be living this role but he is doing it. And doing it well. And what a man to welcome their real dad into this home and show him that we all have the same goal, to raise these girls in a loving home. I know we all had tears this morning saying good bye.

6 comments:

Wow, that was awkward said...

Plus he made the Tivo and 52" big screen happen. Kudos indeed.

Nice Peace of Buddhy said...

What is it with men and their big screen? I enjoy a big one too but I dont care if it's HD....

The BF said...

I couldn't help but tear up when the girls dad left. I hate goodbyes. I grew up traveling back and forth from Arizona to Michigan on a commercial jet.

I can remember my dad packing me cookies in a little sandwich bag for the flight home to AZ and not being able to eat them just because he packed them. What I mean is that just the sight of the bag would make me cry. I usually cried all the way home. And for a day or two after that it was really hard. The "I’m home safe" call to my dad was the hardest though. I could never say goodbye on that phone call without my voice cracking in tears.

As a result I refuse to do long goodbyes with the whole family at the airport its to hard.

I was perplexed that the girls didn't cry when there dad left. Usually they are so emotional about everything and will cry if you tell them to go to bed but not if there dad leaves? I don't understand.

Nice Peace of Buddhy said...

I'm sure your dad experienced the same sorrow and I know he still does.

There is no explaining the girls emotions. All I know is they didnt say a word all the way home.

T said...

Wow. I love to hear how your BF handled your kids' real father. He sounds like an amazing man. You are truly blessed! Both of you!

Nice Peace of Buddhy said...

HE is amazing! He accepts this situation and understands it, having been in the same place my girls are in.